Bleed

By Flamika

You made me bleed
With the sword of eternal rivalry
Ripping through my skin
Bloody tears run down my face
Rage courses my body
And drugs my brain
My nerves tingle with feeling
I am high on adrenaline
Caught in a riptide of cushioning rage
A rage that justifies and excuses
Every vicious action
Every hateful word
But it also hardens my already cold heart
And vanquishes reconciling words unspoken
The shadows sing songs for us
The thunder cheers us on
The lightening leaps for a closer seat
This bitter rivalry is to them a sport
And we are the gladiators in the arena
But not for us
For us it is life
A reason to wake up in the morning
A justification for aggression
An outlet for our demons
A way to feel without really feeling anything
Yet they say that every man bleeds just like me
Wrong. No one bleeds like we do
Caged by a forgotten past
We sing our childhood nursery rhymes
Through the sounds of clashing blades
And venomous cries
Mine are silent screams
And your are screaming silences
Sometimes you bleed just to know you’re alive
Your mocking eyes sear my soul
Your smug grin enrages me further
My breaths come hard and fast
I’ve never felt this alive before
You are the one I love to hate
Carving your name on my face
So that I will never forget what has passed
You made me feel
You made me live
You made me love
You made me hate
You made me bleed

Finished
12-3-00

“They say that every man bleeds just like me.” ­ Kid Rock

“Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive.” ­ Goo Goo Dolls